Rule #57 - Revisit. Reflect. Recommit.
Wow – already it’s the end of March. Where has the time
gone? What’s been happening in life at this time? We are in the middle of Holy
Week, in my religion, and nearing the Lenten finish line. I have a duty to look
back and see what I’ve done, how I may have changed, and what more I can do to
improve the world around me.
These are tough questions. It may seem that this whole
change thing is narcissistic. I mean, gotta change me, be a better me, do
things better, accomplish more… whole lotta self, right? Then I think of the
words of the song “Let there be peace on earth, and let it begin with me,” and
I think, “Self, are you spreading peace?”
That’s a judgment I’m not sure I can make.
Let’s revisit what’s been happening in the past few months.
The biggest item is a break-up with a man who I thought would be a forever
friend. I haven’t heard a word from him – kind or otherwise – in over two
months. I’ve been working hard to forgive him for his rude and selfish behavior.
And I’ve been working on forgiving myself for falling so quickly in love again.
I know I have to learn to trust others in relationships. But I also need to
trust myself too, to know when things are right. I need to tap back into my
“Inner Dude” – the guy in my head that tells me to think twice and be hesitant.
I need to allow time to work its magic on my heart.
We’ve also been deep into planning for my daughter’s
wedding. There’s been lots of talk about missing Hub on a day like that. I’m
feeling his loss more and more with each wedding item checked off the planning
list. I’m anticipating a rough, but happy day.
It’s been easy to stay cocooned up this winter. The cold and
snow, and no place to go at times, can be so depressing. Now with spring
technically here (someone forgot to tell the weatherman some days), I am
starting to feel more alive and energetic. Here’s a big thank-you to those who
moved daylight savings time to earlier in the month.
With the time change, and weather changes, come sports changes.
My Lady Terrapins are heading to the Final Four. The men’s team did
exceptionally well for their first year in the Big 10 conference. Spring
training is almost over for baseball.
I did get back to Sarasota
for some baseball and friend-visiting this year. I brought a widowed friend of
mine (her loss is very recent) who needed the break from all the legal and
financial paperwork that happens after a spouse passes. We both let loose and
had a great time. I am still recovering from the sinus infection I picked up on
the trip.
Plans changed for the Easter feast. I was supposed to visit
my son in Massachusetts. If I
thought I got too much snow this winter, they got more. Schools are making up
lost snow days this week. Sports events
are doing the same. Jobs – same thing. Yes, I am disappointed I can’t see
everyone up north. But I’ll get up there soon – perhaps over Memorial Day
weekend.
I did attend another writer’s conference with my local SCBWI
chapter. This past weekend had me hobnobbing with so many published writers
that I was in awe of the talent. I met EB Lewis, an artistrator, whose
watercolor illustrations are artwork in their own right. His ability to draw me
into the pictures with the blends of colors, and attention to detail is
mesmerizing. I can look at his work and find something new every minute. I also
met Fred Bowen, from the Washington Post. He is writing in the area that I want
to write – chapter books aimed at boys ages 8-12. He uses sports themes to
teach life lessons. I am compelled to read him! I want to know more about his
work.
The barbershop chorus I sing with also had a dress rehearsal
performance. We are getting ready for our contest weekend in April. I now
believe that I am participating in the ultimate team sport. Yes, I sing a specific
part – specific set of notes, words and timing. But I am one of several to
blend and make one complete sound. Sorry, sports purists, there is no ball in
this sport, but it is a sport nonetheless. Singing is fun, emotionally purging,
and physically satisfying. I want to do it well. I hope I am doing it well. I
am committing to being better at singing.
I’ve gotten a chance to revisit a lot of things from the
past few months. Been reflecting on them too. My writing is one thing that is
top priority for me, even going forward into the spring and summer. It’s not
just about the adventures. It’s about how I tell the story of those adventures,
about what I’ve learned from them. I noticed that I haven’t been using the
Gibbs Rules for a while. I think I’ll go back to using them, but only where
it’s appropriate. If the piece is journalistic, I won’t use them. If the piece
is reflective, I will. Does that make sense?
With extra time on my hands at home, I’ve noticed that the
house has been a bit neglected. Yes, basic cleaning occurred. Don’t want the
health department at my door. But now it’s time to get busy doing other things.
Heavy housecleaning of the upstairs needs to happen this spring. It’s time to
clean out closets and all that other spring cleaning stuff. And I can’t forget
the outside. I ordered lots of flower plants for the yard. I need to get
outside and finish the spring clean up. Time for me to plot this out on my
to-do list and get it all ta-done. Time, too, for Ma Nature to give us some
warm, dry days – several in a row would be nice.
Commitment – something a lot of people fear. Why? Because
then, you are accountable. If you say you are going to do something, or commit
to a relationship or task, you have do show that you mean business with your actions.
Too often we say we commit and don’t follow through. What do I want to be held
accountable for? I want to be there for my family and my friends. I want to be
able to help them as best as I can, when I can. I want to work for the greater
good through my worship community at church. I want to expand my social network
to include singles of my own age. I want to write, and be a published author
someday. I want to enjoy the process of writing success (and the “failures”
that go with it). I want to enjoy my life as it is, and as it will be, with
God’s grace.
There… I said it. Now to do it.
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